Assalamualaikum : )
Now playing; Can't help falling in love by A-teens.
Is that typical if I ignore those things that messed up my brain? I know that I can't do anything without trying to solve it but it's just that I don't have the guts. Ya know these few weeks what happen to my family? My dad's company? You've no idea! I know one day I can help the company even it's hard like this. For now, I can help what I know only, just the basic things. Others, Kakak, Baba & Mama will handle. Now, I can see how hard they seeking money for us :') The company is not that stable like before anymore. At first, I didn't know about it but at last, yet I know that I was speechless and crying. I cry in silence, who else could help and should I tell? Does anyone bother? Hell, NO! I know right? As long I can still see people around me happy, I'll just pretend that the problem is over. O-V-E-R. But the reality is not. hmm. I've no idea how to roll the money for every tender the company take. It's not enough and not balanced. I know even I ignore it, it won't go away without solving the problems.
You can see that I still can laugh and smile but inside Allah know what I'm having right now. I don't feel like telling anyone about this. Seeing my family and friends happy just make me feel like the problems has gone, just for a while. I've no time for loves. What I know is, I'm so thankful for what I have. Family and friends are way just enough for now. No one are more special than them. Friends, I can feel that you guys think that I'm trying to stay away but on earth I just don't wanna tell about my problem. You can keep on your thoughts and complaining about me. Deep inside, I still love and I miss you people a lot ♥ Soon, when this problem settle I will be like before, keep in touch like we used do.
A hard year ever I'm having, I don't know till when I can stand but all I know is I'll make my family proud if that will make them happy. Friends? It's not like I don't need them, they are so so important too after my family. I just need to think what's best for me now. I really hope you guys understand my situation. Once I said that I love you, it will remains forever. Some people are just too lucky in their life, maybe I don't have the luck. Toodles!
